Holy Crap?!?

It’s freaking MARCH? I just turned 30 2 weeks ago today. Yeah, I feel a bit old. Growing older is a strange and unique experience. If you had asked me 10 years ago where I thought I’d be today, I would never have said “working as a tech at a web host and single.” No-sir-ee. Nothing like that at all. But plans change and life goes on.

I went to a movie the other night (The Hunger Games.  Highly recommended) and sat with a girl I’d never met before.  She was definitely cute.  I was even considering getting her number.  Then I asked her age.  Nineteen.  That’s an 11 year difference.  I did some math in my head.  I was on my mission when she was 9 years old.  My thoughts to ask her out very quickly evaporated at that sobering thought.  I don’t want to be thought of as a pedobear….

So life moves on.  I go through my days and do what needs to be done.  I’m still looking for someone to marry.  I think the fact that I’m getting older makes it a tougher choice for me.  I mean, there are plenty of people I can ask out.  But, as I think I have said before in this blog, I am no longer dating just to have fun or to have a good time.  I am dating to find a spouse.  And I think that intimidates people.  But I feel that I owe it to myself to finally admit that truth.  If I ask a girl out it’s because I see in her at least a couple of qualities that I think would make a good spouse.  Does that mean I want to marry her?  Heck no!  Experience has taught me that in most cases there are too many things that will make it not work out.  But it does help me to narrow down the characteristics I am looking for.  I hope I’ll find someone sometime soon.  I’m not getting any younger and my mom’s not getting any less persistent.

With the summer months coming on us fast, I hope to have a lot more going on.  If things work out at work I’ll have weekends off soon and will be able to more actively date.  I haven’t had a real date since December.  A really crappy schedule will do that to you.  I also continue to work on my manly physique.  I won’t be updating the site or my facebook with my progress, however.  My parents are coming out to Orem in September.  I want to surprise them.  I will say this, though, I feel amazing.